frustration

Today I'm feeling very frustrated with matt. I mean I guess its normal to feel this way every relationship but no issue has frustrated me this much. anyways 2 days til maryland yay hopefully this trip gets my mind off the issue. Anyways not much longer

its getting closer

well im happy to report the hardest part of matt being gone is almost over from here its all down hill. In 3 days I leave for a vacation to maryland to see washinton dc and baltimore very excited about that. And two weeks later i get back i'll be rushing around like a chicken with its head cut off. I'll be packing, getting teeth filled, shopping, and doing lots of last minute things itll be a busy last three weeks to say the least. I'm glad last couple of weeks will go fast cuz ill be so busy but im not really looking forward to them.

awesome

So i love how like now im not sleeepin at all the most sleep i get is like 5 hours and its kind old i cant wait til matts back and i can actually sleep through the whole nite rite now i look like a cracked out zombie or something i slept 3 hours last nite and i try sleep during the day and i cant get comfortable ugh i just want my man back. i mean if they could give him back a few weeks early id be super greatful. :)

not much longer

one thing that i really dont like about matt being away is that if i have a bad nite like i am tonite hes not around to comfort me :( but at least hes having better cell service now and i got a phone call last nite i love how he surprises me with those :) i may have only got to talk him for 10 minutes but it made my day so much better and times going so much faster now today flew by and ppl saying having ur man away doesnt get easier but it does once when u learn to put that vunerable part of u away and be strong and realize not to complain. army wives actually taught me that.

faster

the days are finally starting to faster its no longer like a day drags on forever thank god that first week seemed to take forever. Plus now i've added a couple of other thing to look forward to besides just seeing matt again like getting iphones on 1st of april, a vacay in maryland for two weeks, and getting my teeth filled yea most people dont get excited about that but its painful so i am. today is 53 days til i see my love again but thats not definate yet its just i dont want to get hopes up for seeing him sooner so im over doing it, it could also be as little as 39 days.

no service

so yesterday I totally freaked out cuz matt doesnt have cell service out west which fucking blows and I freaked out but luckily I gave him my galaxy tab so he texts me on that but that also means no phone calls which blows and another sad thing is that galaxy tab will be turned off on 26th so the last 2 or 3 weeks mite be real fun for me with hardly any communication i can see myself being an emotional roller coaster those last weeks unless i stay very busy. hopefully its not too bad but we shall see.

OMG OMG

Time is going like super fast like 3 days went by in no time im finally starting to get excited. I know its actually gonna happen now. And im surviving with hardly any communication and I'm happy. Im excited to get on the road with him. I'm excited to have sex again it wasn't til this morning that I actually realized I miss sex. Only another 41-56 days I'm nearing the halfway today marks 3 weeks he's been gone. But its getting easier it got alot easier when two months were shaved it omg that made me sooo happy!!!! I love my trucker forever and always

CDL all the way

so matt passed his cdl test the yesterday and he's now on the road on the way to cali i took the first nite vey hard because i thought the amount of communication i have with matt would change. It hasnt thus far and i got a call today which made me super happy. Im actually starting to have a bit of faith in long distance relationships. Mine is actually making relationship stronger instead of taking a crap which shocks me.