Its soo close but so far away

Matts in indiana waiting to get his truck...which means im close to seeing him yet im it seems so far away too because idk if ill even get to see him this month at all...which totally sucks and id thought maybe id actually get to see him this month on our 4th but its not looking like i am for the time being which totally sucks ass.

only 12

only 12 more days til i see matt at the very most im starting to get excited it seems so surreal im also excited to start the rest of my life in the carolinas. even if isnt gonna be around all the time im still excited

theres no words for how i feel

so ive not heard from matt in two days now which pisses me off because he got mad over something so retarded. birthcontrol and then it makes me worry about him to no end. rite now im in function mood which means i can do the things i need to get thru my day but i cry easily and have a short fuse and get angry easily and i dont rly have any emotion so its kind like im in shock i guess. Hopefully he calls texts soon...........

Matts training officially ends on the 23rd of april but hes staying out an extra week which is cool the not cool thing is that I may have to get my tonsils out and not go on the road with matt when I planned but only time will tell if it happens if i have to have them out and its not anything life threatening like cancer I will try to put it off a month or two so I can spend some time with my man even though my tonsils are the size of golf balls i can still eat and function normally. So cross your fingers I can put it off for a bit.

realization

So I realized today that I've with Matt longer then I've been with anyother guy which is crazy since we've only been together a lil under 3 months. I mean yes I was with brad on and off for two years but that isnt exactly the same because with had long periods of time apart inbetween. But Im proud of myself I love him and will forever and always.

Its almost here!!!!!!!

So matt started his phase two training today and that makes me one happy camper. Because that means two weeks from today matt will have his truck and not long after that I will be back with him and I dont really have a lot of stuff left to do before I leave I have to get a new ID or take my drivers test and pack my suitcases thats about it. this week went fast hopefully time doesnt slow down much I want this month over with!!!!!!!! Come on may!!!

2 weeks

Training's almost over!!!! Yay but it still seems surreal that I'm gonna see him again and time is finally starting to slow down :( not much but lil bit hopefully I can find some ways to stay busy til then. Im excited

frustration

Today I'm feeling very frustrated with matt. I mean I guess its normal to feel this way every relationship but no issue has frustrated me this much. anyways 2 days til maryland yay hopefully this trip gets my mind off the issue. Anyways not much longer

its getting closer

well im happy to report the hardest part of matt being gone is almost over from here its all down hill. In 3 days I leave for a vacation to maryland to see washinton dc and baltimore very excited about that. And two weeks later i get back i'll be rushing around like a chicken with its head cut off. I'll be packing, getting teeth filled, shopping, and doing lots of last minute things itll be a busy last three weeks to say the least. I'm glad last couple of weeks will go fast cuz ill be so busy but im not really looking forward to them.

awesome

So i love how like now im not sleeepin at all the most sleep i get is like 5 hours and its kind old i cant wait til matts back and i can actually sleep through the whole nite rite now i look like a cracked out zombie or something i slept 3 hours last nite and i try sleep during the day and i cant get comfortable ugh i just want my man back. i mean if they could give him back a few weeks early id be super greatful. :)

not much longer

one thing that i really dont like about matt being away is that if i have a bad nite like i am tonite hes not around to comfort me :( but at least hes having better cell service now and i got a phone call last nite i love how he surprises me with those :) i may have only got to talk him for 10 minutes but it made my day so much better and times going so much faster now today flew by and ppl saying having ur man away doesnt get easier but it does once when u learn to put that vunerable part of u away and be strong and realize not to complain. army wives actually taught me that.

faster

the days are finally starting to faster its no longer like a day drags on forever thank god that first week seemed to take forever. Plus now i've added a couple of other thing to look forward to besides just seeing matt again like getting iphones on 1st of april, a vacay in maryland for two weeks, and getting my teeth filled yea most people dont get excited about that but its painful so i am. today is 53 days til i see my love again but thats not definate yet its just i dont want to get hopes up for seeing him sooner so im over doing it, it could also be as little as 39 days.

no service

so yesterday I totally freaked out cuz matt doesnt have cell service out west which fucking blows and I freaked out but luckily I gave him my galaxy tab so he texts me on that but that also means no phone calls which blows and another sad thing is that galaxy tab will be turned off on 26th so the last 2 or 3 weeks mite be real fun for me with hardly any communication i can see myself being an emotional roller coaster those last weeks unless i stay very busy. hopefully its not too bad but we shall see.

OMG OMG

Time is going like super fast like 3 days went by in no time im finally starting to get excited. I know its actually gonna happen now. And im surviving with hardly any communication and I'm happy. Im excited to get on the road with him. I'm excited to have sex again it wasn't til this morning that I actually realized I miss sex. Only another 41-56 days I'm nearing the halfway today marks 3 weeks he's been gone. But its getting easier it got alot easier when two months were shaved it omg that made me sooo happy!!!! I love my trucker forever and always

CDL all the way

so matt passed his cdl test the yesterday and he's now on the road on the way to cali i took the first nite vey hard because i thought the amount of communication i have with matt would change. It hasnt thus far and i got a call today which made me super happy. Im actually starting to have a bit of faith in long distance relationships. Mine is actually making relationship stronger instead of taking a crap which shocks me.

Frustration

Today is two weeks matts been gone and it gets easier everyday but today im so frustrated beacuse I cant touch him ugh I hate feeling frustrated anyways....65 more days til the adventure of a lifetime starts I cant wait have a few things to do before april like appts and sorting through things but im super pumped to see matt dear april hurry the fuck up!!!

The beginning

I met my man matt through an ex while they were at ft hood in the army. He just recently got out of the army in january and started training for truck driving its been a challenge without matt around but i know im strong enough to do it. I get matt back in less then two moths and this will go into detailed accounts of our travels while on the road for a year and a little bit of my life before going on the road.