theres no words for how i feel

so ive not heard from matt in two days now which pisses me off because he got mad over something so retarded. birthcontrol and then it makes me worry about him to no end. rite now im in function mood which means i can do the things i need to get thru my day but i cry easily and have a short fuse and get angry easily and i dont rly have any emotion so its kind like im in shock i guess. Hopefully he calls texts soon...........