only 12

only 12 more days til i see matt at the very most im starting to get excited it seems so surreal im also excited to start the rest of my life in the carolinas. even if isnt gonna be around all the time im still excited

theres no words for how i feel

so ive not heard from matt in two days now which pisses me off because he got mad over something so retarded. birthcontrol and then it makes me worry about him to no end. rite now im in function mood which means i can do the things i need to get thru my day but i cry easily and have a short fuse and get angry easily and i dont rly have any emotion so its kind like im in shock i guess. Hopefully he calls texts soon...........

Matts training officially ends on the 23rd of april but hes staying out an extra week which is cool the not cool thing is that I may have to get my tonsils out and not go on the road with matt when I planned but only time will tell if it happens if i have to have them out and its not anything life threatening like cancer I will try to put it off a month or two so I can spend some time with my man even though my tonsils are the size of golf balls i can still eat and function normally. So cross your fingers I can put it off for a bit.

realization

So I realized today that I've with Matt longer then I've been with anyother guy which is crazy since we've only been together a lil under 3 months. I mean yes I was with brad on and off for two years but that isnt exactly the same because with had long periods of time apart inbetween. But Im proud of myself I love him and will forever and always.

Its almost here!!!!!!!

So matt started his phase two training today and that makes me one happy camper. Because that means two weeks from today matt will have his truck and not long after that I will be back with him and I dont really have a lot of stuff left to do before I leave I have to get a new ID or take my drivers test and pack my suitcases thats about it. this week went fast hopefully time doesnt slow down much I want this month over with!!!!!!!! Come on may!!!

2 weeks

Training's almost over!!!! Yay but it still seems surreal that I'm gonna see him again and time is finally starting to slow down :( not much but lil bit hopefully I can find some ways to stay busy til then. Im excited